Lives Journal 3

Rajko Shushtarshich



The story of Judas and Simon Peter

(a gnostic gospel)


The story of Judas and Simon Peter,

as seen by another disciple,

whom Jesus loved most of all..


The Paradise Garden


Judas dreamt while he dozed,

no longer could he sleep as he had once been able,

for he saw only with the eyes of this world:


18.1         He crossed the Kidron Valley,

the cleansing water,

into a garden, beautiful as paradise;

Jesus liked to go there with his disciples;

maybe this had once been the Garden of Eden,

at least he was there to remind them of the hours,

they had spent with him;

near heaven.


In the garden he is alone,

the unrest in His soul is growing


is mingled with pain,


what this could be,

he had no idea.


Is this all?

Is not his mission,

to spread the Word,

knowledge of God – gnosis,

divine understanding

of the soul’s immortality,

his values of

truth, freedom and love?


14.21       Whoever has my commands,

and obeys them,

he is the one,

who loves me;

he who loves me,

will be loved by my Father,

and I will love him,

and show him:



10.34       Jesus: »Is it not written in you Law:

I have said you are gods.

10.35       Can the Scripture be broken by stones?

Can you refute that he has called you: gods;

those to whom the word of God has come,

those who hear it within themselves.

Will you shower all this with stones?

10.36       What about the one whom the Father set apart

as his very own and sent into the world?

Why do you accuse me of blasphemy

because I said: I am God’s Son?

10.37       If I do not do what my Father does you believe me;

10.38       But if I do it you do not believe me.

            If you do not believe me, at least believe the miracles:

            and maybe you will see that the Father is in me and I in the Father.

            Maybe you will see that I am here,

            so that you may realise you are gods,

            for God is in you, and you are in God.«


His spirit spoke unto him:

»You have been chosen Judas for a task more difficult;

you are stronger than the others in spirit,

in spirit you have stepped into my presence,

now the prince of this world will come into you.«


18.2       He had to go there,

18.3       what if he did not go?

That he could no longer do;

for Judas now had no free will,

now he was there with a mob,

carrying torches and lanterns,

and ordinary weapons;

hardly could it be said,

that he came with fire and sword, and

with light, which dispels the dark of night.


18.4       Jesus steps out towards them,

his voice thunders into the night:

»Who is it you want?«

18.5       They reply: »Jesus of Nazareth.«

He says: »I am he!«

18.6         But when he said this to them, they were so afraid,

that they drew back and fell to the ground;

Judas, his betrayer, fell with them.

Such power had his disciples not seen before,

for he had not shown it before. The night was still strong.

18.7       Again He asks them: »Who is it you want?«

They reply: »Jesus of Nazareth.«

18.8         »If you seek me, I am here;

then let these men go.«

This happened so that the words he had spoken would be fulfilled:

»I have not lost one of those you gave me.«

18.9       And Judas could then have left, and all his disciples too.

And two persons in Judas could then have left, but not the third. And

he could not leave, and they could not yet leave, for here was a greater drama;

this drama was from the Father. And he had to

lose one of them, he had to lose part of himself.

18.10       Simon Peter had one of the two swords,

which he drew and struck the high priest’s servant, cutting off his ear;

the servant’s name was Malchus.

18.11       Then Jesus said to Peter: »Shall I not drink the cup

the Father has given me? Put your sword away!«


A cold wind blew, the march began; this was the march

of hatred, betrayal, contempt; everything that fills the human

soul; this was the spirit of the wind, which blows on earth when,

love, its symbol, is bound. It will infect all,

penetrating the souls of his disciples; but that is how it had to

be. The cold settled on those present.


The world chose Judas to be a symbol for the betrayal of God

(Simon Peter’s betrayal was seen by no-one).

Judas handed Jesus over to the Jews

(he was a Jew and no-one wanted to see this).

He has been exculpating the world of its most ignoble deeds,

for over two thousand years, with revenge for the betrayal

(which it was not).

He was not the prince of this world – SELF-APPOINTED!






The scent of nard

fills him with dread,

has it begun,



He carried a purse, which hung from his neck,

so they had something to eat;

for their body

was he to lose his soul?


Why do they not see

the mission which

only Judas could fulfil?


Judas, the only one among them,

can not refer to it,

if he did, he would only be a traitor.


Did they then want,

Him not to die,

to stay alone

in this world?


They did not see,

how his soul thirsted

for eternal life.


They did not hear,

him call them to himself,

when he left them.


If they did hear,

they did not understand,

that now the verdict

of the world is such,

that the prince of this world

will be freed from his little shell,

thrown out of this world.


How could they understand,

that that is his mission:

when Judas stepped clean

before His spirit,

he saw him with spiritual eyes

and heard what would be done to him.


12.1         Those little signs, harbingers of important events,

which one usually does not see,

and if he sees them, only remembers them vaguely, remembers that

he he has already seen them, appeared to Him clearly, one after another.

12.2         The dinner with Lazarus was the first;

Martha served while Lazarus was among those

reclining at table with him; that much he saw.

12.3         Mary takes a pint of pure nard, an expensive

perfume, pours it on Jesus’ feet and wipes them

with her hair: and the house was filled with the fragrance of the

perfume, it was full of its smell.

12.4         Judas Iscariot son of Simon could not help


12.5         »Why wasn’t this perfume sold for a year’s wages,

and the money given to the poor?«

12.7       Jesus: Leave her alone; it was intended that she should save this perfume for the

day of my burial.

12.8       You will always have the poor among you, but you will not always have me.«


12.24     »I tell you the truth:

Unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies,

it remains only a single seed;

But if it dies, it produces

many seeds.


12.25       The man who loves his soul,

will keep it for eternal life;

but the man who hates his soul,

will lose it already in this world, it grows dark;

but the man who truly loves,

does not love for this world.


12.27       Now my heart is troubled,

and what shall I say?

Father, save me from this shell*!

But no,

for that is why I have come,

the way has been so long,

for me to reach this point.

Only a little and I would say the last prayer:

O God, save me from this world! 

12.31       Now is the time for judgement on this world,

now the prince of this world will be driven out.


12.32       But I, when I am lifted up from the earth,

will draw all men to myself«


12.33       Sorrow then fills his soul.

This he told them, that they might understand

his death:

what it is,

why he must die,

how he will die.


12.34       But they did not understand him.

12.35       And again for the umpteenth time he says to them:

»You are going to have the light just a little while longer;

walk while you have the light,

before darkness overtakes you;

the man who walks in darkness does not know where he is going.


12.36       Put your trust in the light while you have it,

so that you may become

sons of light.«

And again sorrow fills his soul.

No-one saw him and no-one heard him;

no-one could see His soul;

only one, who truly loved him.

12.37       Sorrow takes over His soul,

all the miracles, all His works,

was all this in vain?

12.38       This was to fulfil the word of Isaiah the prophet;

His last child, his meaning:

»Lord, who has believed our message?

And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?«


12.40       »He has blinded their eyes and deadened their hearts,

so they can neither see with their eyes nor understand with their hearts,

and I would heal them.«

They did not look with the eyes of the spirit,

nor listen to their inner voice,

they did not understand with their hearts,

they did not step out of themselves, their shell;

who could illumine their understanding?

12.41       So spoke the prophet Isaiah because he saw

Jesus’ glory and spoke about him:


12.49       »I did not speak of my own accord but the Father commanded me what to say.

12.50       The eternal life of the soul,

is not my command, it speaks: for itself.«






is the death of love,

with it something in everyone dies.

But no-one on this earth

felt it as bitterly as Judas.


The first of the disciples

was Judas to betray him,

the first of them

to reach the heavenly kingdom.


He did it fast,

as he commanded:

he betrayed him thrice truly;

he was chosen for the betrayal:

he was chosen by Jesus (at the Last Supper),

chosen in spirit (when his spirit entered him),

chosen by his fate (for it had to be so,

for the old prophecy to be fulfilled);


and yet:

this was not betrayal according to his will,

truly he did not cease to love Jesus,

he loved him as,

he really was.


He gave his life for his friend,

he gave him his light,

there is no greater value than this.

He is the son of light, not the night.


13.1         He now knew with certainty this was his last

meal, it was before the Passover Feast that he ate

the last supper with them.

He knew that his day had come;

he knew he was now leaving those he had loved;

he knew he now stood before the final manifestation of his


Will he be able to love his betrayer;

will he love until the end?

This he knew not with as much certainty because he

knew he had been sacrificed, by Him.


13.2         It was the devil himself who prompted Iscariot to

carry out the evil betrayal.

Will he be able to love until the end.

13.3       He knew he had been sent to now go to the very end;

and he knew that He had given him the grace of the trial.

Jesus stands up, knowing that the Father has placed all things in his hands,

that he can now return to God, whole.

13.4         He got up from the meal and took off his outer clothing;

so he may return clean from where he had come.

13.5         He wraps a towel around his waist,

and washes his disciples’ feet;

drying them with the towel,

which was round his waist.

When he has done this to all his disciples,

humbling himself before them,

he is an example of humility to them;

for even in a higher life this virtue is not all clean,

never to the end;

he wanted it too much.

13.6         When he came to Simon Peter, Simon could not

allow it.

Simon Peter: »Lord, you shall wash my feet?«


13.7         Jesus: »You do not realise now what I am doing,

but later you will understand.«

13.8       Simon Peter: »No, you shall never wash my feet.«

Peter would swear by eternity to refuse;

refuse the humbling of Him before him.

13.9       And Simon Peter asks him to wash his whole body:

his hands, his head, his body; not just his feet!


13.10     Jesus tells him:

»Water cleans, cleans everything,

water is like purity itself.

But the water you cannot see is even cleaner,

it cleans your soul.

The water with which I clean your feet,

it cleans my soul.

Will you deny me that?

Is that not your debt and your portion?

Whoever has been truly cleaned in water,

cleaned in the bath of purification,

is truly clean,

is all clean;

does not need,

to clean his feet alone,

which bear the dust of vanity,

climbing stairs,

hurrying upwards;

treading on what they do not see;

and what they do not see they trample underfoot.

You can be all clean through purification,

but not necessarily.

You are clean, but not all of you.

May no-one believe,

that he is clean for eternity.

No-one is all clean,

but may he not think,

we are all unclean;

you are not all equally unclean,

I too am not all clean.«


13.11       He knew himself,

and his betrayer,

and the betrayer within himself.

13.12       He cleaned their feet,

put on his clothes,

returned to his place and asked them:

»Do you understand what I have said to you?

You do not yet understand but you will see.


13.13       You call me: Teacher and Lord;

and rightly so for that is what I am,

but not only that.

13.14       If I your Teacher and your Lord have cleaned your feet;

you also should wash one another’s feet.

13.15       I have set you an example, shown you my way, that

you too may clean yourselves; and I have given you an insight into us.

13.16       I tell you the truth:

no servant is greater than his master.

But first the former must be true, that the

second may twice be true.

The messenger is not greater than the One who sent him.

13.17       Blessed are you if you know this and abide by it,

you will surpass your freedom.

13.18       I am not referring to all of you,

but I am speaking to all of you:

I know those I have chosen,

and I know whom I have chosen.

I know who will be first and who will be second in you;

and I know which one of you will be first and which one second.

I know how you come furthest,

by following your own path.

That is why I now say: Scripture must be fulfilled:

“He who has shared my bread has lifted

up his heel against me.”

13.19       I am telling you now before it happens,

so that when it does happen you will see that I am He,

who was sent;

13.20       and he, who accepts me, accepts me as I

was sent by Him; and accepts Him who sent me.«


13.21       After he had said this, Jesus was troubled in spirit,

he saw that they did not understand,

then he testified:

»I tell you the truth, one of you is going to betray me.

Quite truly one of the three in you will betray me,

from the three persons in you he will betray me;

and one will be first; when he does this,

all the rest of you will also do this, some of you more than once;

that you may see. If you know this, blessed are you who do this,

for you have surpassed yourselves.

If someone betrays,

he betrays your love, and his own;

this is as if he dies twice,

as if you died in him, he in you;

it is as if love died twice truly;

love dies in him and in you,

love separates from the love in Him.«


The more he told them, the greater his sorrow.

They did not understand, he had to speak to them with his body,

with the mouth to the son of man:

»What has already happened must happen again;

you do not see it yet but you will see it when it happens.

I have done this; and whoever accepts me as I am,

accepts me in truth,

and accepts the Father who sent me.


“He who shares my bread has lifted up his heel

against me”; but he had to do this because he has done this

already, even before it happened, as you would say.

He will be the first to do this, as you will after him.«


13.22       His disciples stared at one another,

at a loss to know which of them he meant.

They do not consider themselves.


13.23     One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved,

was reclining next to him.

13.24       Simon Peter motioned to this disciple and said:

»Ask him which one he means.«

13.25       The suspicion of love is green in colour, and follows it like a shadow;

the disciple whom Jesus loved leans back against Jesus;

and he was what he truly was and nothing else

was to be said to him;

and still he replies to Simon Peter: »It is He alone who tells us,

who could be that me.«

And to Him: »Lord, who is it?«

13.26       Jesus dips his piece of bread and answers: »It is he to whom I will give it.«

He gave it to Judas Iscariot son of Simon.


13.27       Bitter was the morsel of Judas Iscariot son of Simon,

when he ate the morsel, his body,

Judas in Judas became dark, the symbol of the angel of darkness.

He was chosen to betray.

And Judas betrayed him, he betrayed Him three times truly, he betrayed him completely.

It was his fate that betrayed him,

in his spirit he betrayed him,

he was the angel of darkness when he betrayed Him;

and he will govern him.

He will govern with deceit and in secrecy,

with a treacherous conspiracy,

with a sublime betrayal;

he will govern at the denunciation of each man by every other,

for a long time yet.

Sorrowful and long is the story of Judas,

that is why Jesus also said to him:

»What you are about to do, do quickly.«

13.28     No-one at the meal understood him.

They asked: »Why did he say this?«

Only he who reclined next to him

saw much. 

13.29       Some of the disciples thought

that since Judas had charge of the money, Jesus was telling him:

»Buy what is needed for the Feast.«

And truly for the Feast, much of this was needed,

to make the Feast, what it became.

The others understood it thus: that Judas betrayed,

because he fell in love with money, because he made money

his love;

did not in truth Judas chose this himself, but earlier,

when he still could choose?

Then he could chose no longer for it was already

chosen, no longer was it in his power;

when He chose him to be the prince of this world.

Some of them saw from entirely elsewhere:

that Judas may be giving to the poor;

and what did the poor in spirit need more than this:

to see what betrayal in truth truly is,

and whom it serves?

13.30     Judas, after eating his morsel, leaves at once;

it was already dark that evening.

Now some of the disciples thought,

that since Judas had left with the purse, it was riches that had got the better of him;

and truly he looked after them, so they did not need to;

is it not most difficult to be pure in heart,

if you worry constantly for the money hanging around

your neck, the purse on your breast?

The night was truly dark that day,

and it would be hard to see everything.

But one of them saw much more.

It was He who gave him the sight,

to see with a pure heart.

He saw more than he could report.

And how could anyone report everything that he saw?

No-one can do this, no-one has ever been able to do this,

no-one has seen Everything.

And how could he report more than He wanted?

It was night-time, the dawn was yet far for them,

and the first, who was chosen, had already left.

And He, while he told them these things,

was troubled in spirit,

for he knew they would not understand;

he will have to talk to them with the body,

with the mouth to the son of man:


13.31       »Now is the Son of Man glorified and

God is glorified in him!

13.32       And if God is glorified in him,

whom he chose to betray,

then God too glorifies him in Himself,

glorifies him infinitely.

13.33       My children, I will be with you only a little longer,

but as you cannot go with me, although you can go far,

I can also say to you now:

13.34       You will come furthest with love in yourselves, in your hearts.

In truth I tell you, this is how you come far:

love one another,

love the group of three in yourself,

love one another as I loved you in myself;

love one another with all your heart.

13.35       The other recognises himself in you by loving,

and by love too you recognise yourselves,

that you all love within yourselves.

By this all men will know that you are my disciples,

if you truly love one another.

As a spiritual eye can see its own eye:

like the eye of a stranger who does not see;

so the spiritual heart can feel its heart:

as a foreign heart which does not love.

Only true spiritual love can truly

begin to feel divine love.«


13.36       Simon Peter: »Lord, where are you going?«

Jesus: »Where I am going, you cannot follow now;

but you will follow later.«

13.37       Peter: »Lord, why can’t I follow you now?«

Peter was desperate,

sincere in his desperation,

he cries and pleads: »Do not go!

I will lay down my life for you.«

13.38       He looks at him sorrowfully then says to him compassionately:

»Will you really lay down your life for me?

But were it now, you would choose the easier path, Peter.

You will continue to disown your love,

you declare it too easily, that is why you will renounce it within yourself;

and you will see your pain when you do this:

three times you will disown your love.

Truly I liked this sincerity of yours.«




The Shepherd


»You are as hard as a rock,

Simon, son of John,

your name will be Cephas

(Peter for us),«

said Jesus to him

when they first met.


But when they last met:

»Someone else will dress you,

and lead you where,

you do not want to go.«


He built a church

as solid as rock,

he took care of his sheep.


And when he grew old,

he looked back at his life;

became troubled in the spirit,

that was His sadness in him.


Peter was not free,

someone else led him,

where he did not want to go himself.


Now he knew who

dressed him and saw that

he did not look after His sheep.


In his ears echoed

the Words of His anger:

»Shall I not drunk of the cup

given me by my Father?

Put away your sword!«


If he had not stopped them they would have killed them all.

That may have been better for him.

But it could not be that way.


The world accepted faith in miracles,

truly they were grateful for it and the hope

in life eternal,

for a mighty house, built on rock;

but his love they first betrayed;

they trade with a god, they are interested in power and authority,

there is nowhere on this earth,

that its hand cannot reach;

those who followed His commands they betrayed, killed,

led, started wars, in the name of god,

burnt holy scriptures, nonbelievers,

but first the gnostics, the seekers of the truth,

the true seekers of God.


11.46       Some of them went to the Pharisees

to tell them what Jesus had done.

11.47       When the chief priests and the Pharisees

find out about this miracle,

they are filled with panic.

Now this was serious,

their power was at stake.

Immediately they call a meeting of the Sanhedrin,

and discuss like this:

11.48       »What is this man doing?

He is now even bringing the dead back to life?

What shall we do?

If we leave him just a little longer,

no-one will believe us?

Does anyone still believe us?

The Romans will come with their army,

take everything from us,

our land and our people.«


11.49       One of them, Caiaphas;

was elected

that unfortunate year

to be high priest;

he spoke differently,

like this:

»You know nothing at all!

11.50       And neither do you think much;

otherwise you would know that it is better for you,

if this man dies for you;

if he dies for the nation,

the whole nation will not die.«

11.51       But he did not say this just like that,

he did not say this

on his own.

This was his prophecy,

which he said for that year,

because the high priest it was,

who made the official prophecy;

this is what he said:

11.52       »Jesus will die for the nation;

and not just for this nation,

but for all nations,

for the scattered children of God;

He makes them one.

Each nation is individuality on its own,

none of them is outside God,

they are one with Him.«

They did not even listen to all he had to say,

they did not even take his prophecies very seriously;

they had something more important to do.


18.15       Simon Peter followed Jesus, he was the first to

promise, that he will not betray him, that he would sooner die.

Through the door they went into the high priest’s courtyard.

18.16       Peter stayed outside, at the door, another disciple,

darker than Peter, went with Him.

When he comes out, from the courtyard, the other disciple, an acquaintance of the high

priest, loyal to him, saw the girl on duty who knows,

who comes and who leaves through the door;

then the other darker disciple brings

in the first one who was Simon Peter.

18.17       The girl at the door then says to Peter:

»You are not one of his disciples are you?«

Peter: »I am not.«

And he was cold, and he felt so alone

now Peter.

18.18       The servants and officials made a fire because they too were cold.

They stood around the fire and warmed themselves;

Peter too stood with them and warmed himself,

but he got no warmer, he could not, because the wind really blew cold.


18.24       Then Annas sent him, still bound, to

Caiaphas the high priest.

18.25       Still Simon Peter tries to warm himself by the fire;

when they, who stand round the fire, ask him:

»Are you not one of his disciples?«

He says: »I am not.«

And he was grey, even darker now, Peter.

18.26       And the torment was not over for Simon Peter. Here was

a servant, a relative of the man whose ear Peter had cut off.

He asks him: »Did I not see you in the garden

with him?«

18.27     »You didn’t.«

Peter denied him completely, and the cock crew,

the dawn was near, but so far for him.

A terrible fire swept through his soul.

»O Father, that I could burn it,«

pleaded Peter, how softly grey is his colour.


21.15     When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter:

»Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?«

Simon Peter answered: »Yes Lord, you know,

that I love you.«

Jesus said: »Take care of my sheep.«

21.16       Again Jesus asked: »Simon son of John, do you love me?«

Simon Peter answered: »Yes Lord, you know that I love you.«

Jesus said: »Take care of my sheep.«

21.17       The third time he said to him: »Simon son of John, do you love me?«

Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time:

»Do you love me?« He said to Him:

»Lord, you know all things; you know,

that I love you.«

Jesus said: »Feed my sheep.«

21.18       Again there was silence, for the third time, but the atmosphere was not

heavy, just earnest; then Jesus said to Peter:

»I tell you the truth:

When you were a child,

you were free;

you dressed yourself,

and went where you wanted;

you were truly free

to go where you wanted to go;

but when you are old,

you will stretch out your hands,

your hands which reach far;

and someone else will dress you

and lead you where you do not want to go.«


Jesus also told him many other things,

but whether Simon heard them then cannot be

said, but he will hear them, he will certainly hear them.

The other disciple heard them because Jesus

loved him most, and he loved Him in truth.

By his love the disciple saw; His love

he understood it all. This was love in the three worlds of the soul,

the individualities of Himself and Him.


If God wrapped His Divinity thrice,

he did it so that each man could unwrap it in himself.

Jesus showed them this on himself, from himself, from his heart,

so they would see that it is no different for them.

When he was still a child, Peter saw the divine spark in himself;

he tended the sheep like a child of God.

Then Peter forgot; and he would have completely forgotten,

had Jesus not come to rouse his depths,

to show him the translucency of all the layers: of his soul.

He shone light on his love:

the love of the son of man;

the love of the spirit of man, love pure and spiritual;

the divine love of man, the brightest, the brightest

in man, his soul; that is seen only by the spirit of man when

he is pure.

Whoever loves not cannot see;

whoever cannot see, knows not of his path, of his freedom.

And Jesus said to Peter: »Be not a guide,

as any man can be who cannot see,

who does not love;

be not a guide as any man can be who is of

clear spirit but who does not love;

be a guide who follows the divine spark within but not

in the manner of any man of sharp wit but who does not love;

love like a child of God for such are my sheep.

Tend my sheep, they are the children of God.

You fished where there were no fish;

wide was your reach, your spirit was darkening;

but you were brave, truly you were,

though that is what draws you where you do not want to go;

then you must go there, then you are you no longer, and you are not free.«


21.19       This he told him to show him his way;

all the way till his death Peter could see,

and the abysses which draw him, and His sacrifice,

with which he celebrated God, he could see.

And when he told him this and saw that Peter did not see,

that he loves him not enough, he only said:

»Follow me!«


21.20       Peter turned around,

and saw the disciple whom Jesus loved,

following them,

this was the one who caused him so much pain,

who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper

and who asked Him:

»Lord, who is going to betray you?«

Deep in his soul was engraved this word,

it was engraved thrice.

21.21     When Peter sees him following Jesus he says:

»Lord, what about him?«

His voice said more:

suspicious of love,


openly hateful was his voice,

and grey, dark in colour.

21.22       Jesus answered: »If I want him to remain alive...

until I return,

just for you,

what is that to you?

You must follow me!

Do not take notice of the others; don’t look at others like that,

don’t wait for their love.

He goes alone,

he is not someone you must tend.« 





– The marked text is from the book of St. John’s Revelation or On Three Values (compared with the text from the book issued in 1986, 1990, 1994 the differences are minimal).

– The message of St. John’s gospel is actually that of a gnostic text. It was written up (or copied) by a gnostic. The gospel according to St. John is a gnostic gospel. Even after the copying or editing of St. Irenaeus (Bishop of Lugdunum, Gaul, ca. 130-202; now Lyon, France) the essence of this message is unambiguous: knowledge of God – gnosis.

– Possibly an unnecessary comment, but still: gnostic words speak to us of their own accord; in truth they address us three times: first as a story, if we read it freely; secondly in the spirit – when we watch with spiritual eyes, we could say – with intuition because the story is just the framework for the values – the direct facts of consciousness; thirdly with a clean heart, some would say – with a pure mind.

* from this shell – from this hour, from this layer of the soul, from this prison, from this world.

– Note about the source: the Holy Bible

Why choose the revelation according to Saint John, taken from the Holy Bible of the Old and New Testament, translated from the Greek original and published by the British and Foreign Bible society in Ljubljana in 1931?

The language is already coloured with the patina of a time gone by; but if there is no time, then what is it coloured with, if not with something which is being lost, and was already more present than it is now?

I tried to keep to the Bible as much I possibly could, but the changes comment on the reading, about how the Gospel of St. John can be read – by me. For reading is one thing, and understanding is another, and comprehending, reliving is yet another thing. I know that every person reads everything in their own way. When they read it, they hear something inside them, their inner voice, and if they write it down, what they write down is not the same as the original, and yet it can be closer to them in spirit than if they had written down exactly the same thing. The symbols of words are empty in themselves; we must give them meaning, otherwise they remain more or less dead symbols that we read automatically.

In reality we converse with the spirit; letters, words, sentences and books are only the equivalent of the communication of one spirit with another, one idea with another, one value with another; one individuality with another. 


taken from: Janezovo razodetje ali O treh vrednotah Spremna beseda /Opomba k viru/




* See: John 10.38; 11.52; 12.1-8, 24-27, 31-50; 13.1-38; 14.21; 18.1-16, 24-27; 21.14-22;

         Isaiah 44.18; 49.6; 50.10; 51.4,6; 53.2-12; etc..



Translated from Slovenian by Marko Petrovich




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